I think it's happening...

"To hell with emotions"'s what I used to say
Just have fun and enjoy life every single day
But what the hell happened? How did i get here?
Why do I feel lonely when she is not near?

I thought I figured out how to live my life
Away from the word "love", that cuts like a knife
I thought I can easily look at any girl
And see her as one of many in this world

But still this one girl I think got to me
To my heart somehow...My god... this can't be
With her little games, she's into my mind
And now I feel something...don't know of what kind

My narcissist self still remains untouched
But my universe now has shifted so much
The center of it all, that 'till now was me
Is sliding towards her. At least seems to be

I can't stand one night without being with her
She did get to me,man. Of that I am sure
I just feel complete with her in my arms
I know I have given in to all her charms

I won't say the words, for I am not sure
But still, to this illness, I know there's no cure
I am falling in it, but I won't give up
I will not surcome and fall in its trap

Love is not for me, not my way of life
As I like it, freedom is my only wife
Still, she makes me wonder just how could it be
If she was the one that was meant for me

But what's going on next? we shall live and see...


*This poem means a lot to me. One of my favorite actually. I think Carmen sensed this when she took my words and turned them round to write them in romanian. A real work of art that's touching the soul :): "Se intampla..."

Some stupid cast...

You look around you and you feel
Like running wildly through the field
Like jumping on the soft green grass
Like not letting a moment pass

You'd swim in crystal blue water
Along with the other mermaids
Such grace like you would have no other
Such beauty that all else just fades

You'd please the gods in graceful dance
You'd never look back in the past
You'd have achieved all of your plans
But what stops you's that stupid cast

Still, don't worry, this pain won't last

A dark cold world

As I opened my eyes today
I woke up in another world
As if it changed in some odd way
And everything just turned so cold

All that I had seemed to be lost
And all I hoped for turned to dust
And everything that I had cherished
In one second,one blink, had perished

Where was I now? God, what went wrong?
When yesterday I felt so strong
When days ago my world was hole
And now there's nothing in my soul

I fucked up but just don't know how
I did something but don't know what
It's me, I feel it in my gut
So what am I to do right now?

All that I loved has turned away
How the hell did it come to this?
I am now lost, I feel astray
So in the end... What did I miss?

Was she now?...

How can all these girls just have no remorse?
And cheat on their boyfriends with another one
And then cheat on that One with some other John
All the girls this days just have no remorse

Why do this to one that cares about her?
Just take what he gives her and play with his heart
And keep on doing that 'till he falls apart
She does this to one that cares about her

And how can you not give a fuck when he's down?
Pretend that you don't see what's in front of you
And never admit what should always be true
She just doesn't give a fuck when he's down

That's when he figures out that it is not worthed
And goes on with life like she was never there
So from that moment on he tries not to care
Thank god he figured out that it is not worthed

A light...

It's only fair to have some fun
When all you had to do is done
When all that you have loved is gone
And when all ends up being none

In vain you search for yesterday
When you no longer see a way
To get out of this mess some day
And melt the snow on which you lay

No wonder life is so fucked up
When you yourself have lost the map
And you can no longer rise up
To get out of this self set trap

But when your way seems to be lost
In life and love you have to trust
As one soul rises from the dust
And in her to believe you must

Her eyes are warm, her smile is light
Such an attraction you can't fight
And when, at dawn, you hold her tight
You know you will get through the night

Am I to be saved? I just might...

I do not give...

I didn't give you my heart
Just let you take it away
I've let you tear my soul apart
Hoping to stitch it back someday

And so you did with every word
You slowly came into my world
I had you breach my every thought
When how to love I just forgot

I didn't just show you my world
I let you see it through my eyes
So in the end, it's no surprise
That you're in my mind, sweet girl

So when you left I told myself
That I will never look for you
You're like a book, left on the shelf
Waiting for me to think of you

But that, my girl,'s not up to me
Will you come back? That we shall see
Will I still be here? No one knows
I guess that's just how this life goes

I'll see you again , I suppose...

Promises you can't keep...

I promised myself that all this will stop
I'll leave all behind and let it all drop
I promised a girl that we would then close
A story that faded along with a rose

I promised my heart that it shall hurt no more
That I'll lock my feelings behind a closed door
And I tend to keep this one single promise
Those sweet lips I'll never again try to kiss

But don't make a promise you know you can't keep
'Cause words will then haunt you when you fall asleep
You'll never forget that forbidden love
So don't believe any of the words above