A new beginning....

A story of a new beginning, a new chapter in life, a poem that closes this chapter and the blog along with it. I'll be back soon with a new chapter.

Sometimes in life you think you've had enough

When everything goes wrong, when things start to get tough

You hope to find something to make you stay on top

To go ahead and do it, not let yourself be stoped

You feel that you are down, that there is no way out

You hope that all will end soon, your mind is full of doubt

Self confidence is nowhere, no reason to go on

And all your dreams have parished, while all your hope is gone

And still, you find someone that is looking out for you

Someone that cares, someone who will try to help you through

Right there, you start to wake up, believe you'll be ok

Because she's here to guide you, and here she's gonna stay

That's all you've ever needed, that's all you'll ever need

When to life you find meaning, you'll find out you can read

A ray of light in darkness, a shortcut through the woods

A way out of the maze in which you were lost for good

"Omule, dai si'nvata,te crezi atotstiutor?"

Is all that you have needed to get up from the floor

So now it's time to do it, now that you can achieve

Everything that you fought for, cause now you can believe

Once more, goodbye...

Some people think that love
Is all they need to feel
To help them rise above
And make it all seem real

I'm not saying they're wrong,
Misguided or naive
Cause if their faith is strong
It's helpful to believe

Still, I'm starting to think
That love's a fairy tale
And if you stop to blink
You'll fear that you may fail

In truth I think I would
Do better by myself
If I do as I should
I'll find that there's more wealth

In the words "love to live"
Than in them "live to love"
In freedom I believe
Not in the words above

Who am I lying to?
I've loved and will again
I might get to love you
Or her, or all of them

I'll just say that for now
I'm happy to be free
From you, from her... somehow
I'm where I need to be

So I guess it's goodbye
To all of you, my love
I'll spread my wings and fly
To the skies up above

So, once more, goodbye, love.

...Out of dreams

I had a dream a few nights ago about this beautiful little brunette with the most incredible blue eyes I have ever seen. She was singing a song to me. So, in the middle of the night, I woke up singing this song and started writing it down. So this is what she said:

You're the one for me
My boy can't you see
How you complete me?
Happiness, this is energy...
Out of dreams

All I wanna know
Is that you will be
Always close to me
Happiness, this is energy...
Out of dreams

My eyes only see
Your smile. You'll always be
The only one for me
Happiness, this is energy...
Out of dreams

All my life I knew
That I will find you
Our love is true
Happiness, this is energy...
Out of dreams


Am I in love again?

No pain, fun game...

There is just no life without love

Believe not what you've read above

Life can be fun without someone

That you would miss when she is gone

Cause when you have no one to fear

That you will loose when she's not near

You can live life without a doubt

And stand up tall to face the crowd

You can sin and never feel bad

You can hurt and never feel pain

Without love you will not feel sad

Don't be afraid to play the game

So,simple life: no one to blame...

Raining cigarettes...

The sky is crying silently

The red star stoped smiling at me

That warm sun that I prize so much

Is once again gone, out of touch

I am alone here with my sins

Aspiring for another life

One cigarette is all I strive

To find no matter by what means

The smoke is what keeps me alive

The thin silk thread dances the air

It tells a story that's so fair

It gives me reasons to survive

I think it's happening...

"To hell with emotions"'s what I used to say
Just have fun and enjoy life every single day
But what the hell happened? How did i get here?
Why do I feel lonely when she is not near?

I thought I figured out how to live my life
Away from the word "love", that cuts like a knife
I thought I can easily look at any girl
And see her as one of many in this world

But still this one girl I think got to me
To my heart somehow...My god... this can't be
With her little games, she's into my mind
And now I feel something...don't know of what kind

My narcissist self still remains untouched
But my universe now has shifted so much
The center of it all, that 'till now was me
Is sliding towards her. At least seems to be

I can't stand one night without being with her
She did get to me,man. Of that I am sure
I just feel complete with her in my arms
I know I have given in to all her charms

I won't say the words, for I am not sure
But still, to this illness, I know there's no cure
I am falling in it, but I won't give up
I will not surcome and fall in its trap

Love is not for me, not my way of life
As I like it, freedom is my only wife
Still, she makes me wonder just how could it be
If she was the one that was meant for me

But what's going on next? we shall live and see...


*This poem means a lot to me. One of my favorite actually. I think Carmen sensed this when she took my words and turned them round to write them in romanian. A real work of art that's touching the soul :): "Se intampla..."

Some stupid cast...

You look around you and you feel
Like running wildly through the field
Like jumping on the soft green grass
Like not letting a moment pass

You'd swim in crystal blue water
Along with the other mermaids
Such grace like you would have no other
Such beauty that all else just fades

You'd please the gods in graceful dance
You'd never look back in the past
You'd have achieved all of your plans
But what stops you's that stupid cast

Still, don't worry, this pain won't last